Warning: Tough Feelings Discussed Below

Sometimes I wonder if you can truly ever let something go... For example, something bad happens to you. You lose something or someone. If what you've lost is important to you, then it takes some time to get over. Some people do, some people don't and some people fake it really well. For most, you probably hurt, then you start pretending things are ok (usually because of some stupid social norm about how you should be responding), and then you realize you aren't putting any effort into pretending anymore, because things really are ok.

So why do things come back to haunt you? I really wish I could understand why something that happened so long ago, something that you believe you have let go of can just come back and kick you in the gut. In my case, it usually kicks me in the gut, gives me a Stone Cold Stunner, and then proceeds to kick me while I am down.

Yesterday, I decided to talk about the loss I experienced with someone I am becoming friends with. In truth, when we were done talking, I really felt ok about it. I wasn't anxious or weepy. Well, my unconscious self, apparently, did not feel ok with it. I had nightmares about the person I lost and it was awful.

Today hasn't gotten much better. Not directly related to the situation discussed last night, but it's like the fates are pissed at me or something. Maybe I am being tested - how much can she handle?

All this angst will fade and I will be fine again. But today? Things aren't so good...

So... Twilight.

Have you read it? It's by Stephenie Meyer and is a wonderful story. I have heard that people are comparing this series to Harry Potter, and I can see why. Now, I am not saying it is bettter... It's just equally as good in a different way. The movie comes out on 11/21. I am pretty sure I will be buying tix ahead of time and getting their early.

I don't want to give anything away - but there are vampires and that makes it cool enough to at least check it out.

OK - back to reading. Bought the rest of the books today. On page 130 of Book 2 already. So far, not as good as the first, but I may change my mind.

Hope you're all well. I will write again when I have something interesting to write about.

Love and hugs...